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Blessed Christmas!

Just checked the 2010 curriculum, wa lao eh. The timings are kinda fail, but i'll have more time with friends♥

Sec 4E & 5N students:

• Mon-Fri – 7.15am
• Dismissal at 4.45pm (Mon, Tue, Thu), 2.15pm (Wed), 12.30pm (Fri)

Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you're hard-headed. If you're quiet, you don't care. If you call him, you're too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.

If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don't fuck him, you're a tease. If you do, you're easy. You tell him your problems, he says you're irritating. If you don't, he says you don't trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares.' If you break a promise, he doesn't trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it's because he had to.

If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; when girl are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can't forgive; girls can forgive, but can't forget.

When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love; girls wish to be his last.

-Fuckingobscenity@Tumblr.

Christmas is coming already!

Thank you so much for everything you've given me. The past 3/4 months has been the happiest days for me. I'm sorry i couldn't make you happy. I really am. I never wanted this, never wanted this to ever happen. But i'll respect your decision. So much has happened the past months. Goodbye, now it is hurting, but i can never bring myself to regret everything we've had. 

Being together was like a dream, too beautiful, too happy, too good to be true. But now it's like a nightmare, however, it's worse because i can't wake up from it. It's reality. The only thing i've ever wanted was for you to be happy. I'll be there for you no matter what, now and always. You say this is the best solution for us. Perhaps it is. I hope you'll understand that I'm trying my best to loosen my grip. It ain't easy, it's like you're taking away a huge part of my heart along with you when you decided to leave me. Now i have to live without it. I really want to tell you that i truly cared for you from my heart. I still do, now. I always will. Because you've been a very important part of me. I don't know if i have been to you, but you have. There's no words that could describe how much you mean to me. I don't know how to prove it to you either, there's no way.

Lastly, I hope you'll always be happy. Always keep that beautiful smile of yours on, you look great when you do. And i hope you won't forget about us, what we once had, the promises we made, cause i can't get them out of my head. I hope the past three/four months meant something to you. I hope i once meant something to you, even though now i don't. I'll always be there for you unconditionally, now, tomorrow, i always will. We'll always be friends, you promised right?

Yes, pinky promise.

19 Aug 2009, ended 19 Dec 2009. Today is our 4th my dear. Do you remember?

I'm in no mood to blog seriously, but i need to have something to distract me. The anxiety is killing me already. Hmm, just a few hours to go only. I have been spamming myself with negative thoughts all day long. Farmsvilled, Cafeworlded, Youtubed, that's what i did for the whole freaking day. 

The day is a struggle to get by, miracle i got this far. Maybe i'll drown in the bathroom later, best. Bet i can't get to sleep tonight. Went out with darl and YY yesterday to make Celeste a Christmas card, since she send us each one a couple of weeks ago. Hope she liked it(: We spend like a few hours sitting at Mcdonald's contemplating what to write and which colour for the card base, lols. Hmm, then we bade farewell to YY, and bused home. Had a good time with JY at the bus-stop. Today was insanely boring, outta my mind already. Anyw, I really have nothing else to blog about alr, so yeap, byebye and goodnight.

Disappear like you never was in my life. You had me questioning my sanity. But i couldn't get you out of my mind. I can't pretend it never happened, pardon me, I can't. Because i've never loved anyone like you.

xoxo.

Ooo-la-la(:

OMG, 5 days more to my future destination. I'm dying to heart attack and sleep deprivation, hur hur. Christmas in 12 days, Christmas eve in 11. Hmm, there's gonna be a Christmas service next week, 20th Dec. Do come join us at Riverlife for a service of love, faith and warmth! What's great, there's free BNJ ice cream! Yes, FOC. So do come down and join us, I'll be thrilled if you guys(anyone who sees this) can come, pretty pretty please:D     Save one more for Jesus.

Oh, andand before I end this ridiculously short post, anyone wanna celebrate Christmas together? Let's go out on Christmas eve(:  Call/sms me.

You made me feel like I was walking on air but now I feel like I am walking on broken glass. Each step I take hurt like hell.

xoxo.

Hur hur hur, hello.

10 Dec

Out with Meiyu, YY and William to catch New Moon. I think the movie was awesome, Edward and Jacob are so hot. Eye candy all the way, heheh:D  But the Twilight cast and crew has definitely outdone themselves. At least my 7.50 was well spent.

Our tickets. Andandand i'm hopeless at looking for the seats. The dark lighting didn't help at all. Hmm, off to the lib this afternoon to return my long overdued books and pay the fine. My ezlink didn't have enough credit, darn it, and I got blisters, yuck laaa. Church tmrw, awesommee, but w/o cell. (sighs), and I'm gna have to collect my sister's purple skinny jeans at Bedok. Ohohoh, results in exactly a week. (run around the house). I didn't want to think about it, but Meiyu kept droning on about it yesterday, now I'm a nervous wreck also. Tsk tsk. This week has been rather awful, the void in my heart is empty.

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you regret 
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside?

xoxo.

Hello lovelies. Haven't been blogging, because I haven't been feeling so well. (pouts). I wished I felt better. Anyway, out with babes (>Meiyu, JY, Celeste and Eunice) a few days ago. Had lunch at LJS, and went to the arcade where JY and Meiyu played basketball. OMG, 9 more freaking days to N level results, and and 18 days to Christmas! Aweeeeeesoome(: 

I think I am going to jump off the building soon. The upcoming release of the results is getting me jittery inside OMG OMG OMG OMG. Hmm, actually I don't know what to feel. I feel sorry for my sanity, cause it's losing itself (bangs head on the wall). I'm getting so so so paranoid already please. Oh oh, New Moon soon! Hur hur, can't wait. Suddenly realize this post is so retarded.

Hope you know this ain't easy for me. Hope the last 3 months or so meant something. 

xoxo.